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| As of today, I am officially a Biology B.A. major... goodbye and good riddance BioChem, not that I didn't like you, I was just a seriously misinformed freshman trying to get into college.
Lately I've been really moody, really tired, really complainy (and we all know what that probably means except the physical manifestation of these symptoms hasn't revealed itself quite yet) and it just sucks because I have so much work to do and I feel like running my mouth and complaining to everyone in the world.
But seriously, I have so much to do, and so. little. time to do it. Carrie why are you blogging then?! See paragraph above.
I'm sure the rest of you are as stuck in quagmire as every other college student out there, but sometimes...it just really sucks. Arrrrgh, I need it to be... November 12. After that... all I have are finals left. But between now and then, this is the real test if I've done my job changing my study habits. I have so much to do.
ahhhhh.
ok *SLAP* AHHH. OK FIGHT ON FIGHT ONNNN.
Beat the FREAKIN BEAVERS.
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| Quick quick update.
So, I had my second Ochem midterm this past week, and did well. Now I just have one more midterm and the final in terms of tests, and the policy for that is my lowest grade will be dropped. It is such a comfort to me I'm half way through Ochem A and that I can only do better from here on out. There's also the lab portion, but that, I think is well, and hopefully that continues. No borderline grade for Ochem (haha can't say the same for MolBio but I'll be working on that next!)
Praise God... He really is just way too faithful :)
I'm also switching majors, from Biochemistry to Biology B.A. So let me explain a bit. Initially I wasn't going to finish undergrad and get a degree in anything and hopefully just move on to pharm school. I actually had no idea what the requirements for Biochemistry were before choosing it x( probably not the best idea... but I hadn't considered getting the degree anyway. So, I still want to finish in 3 years right? Doing a Bio B.A. matches most closely with my reqs for pharm school, the only things different are that I have to take Language, Genetics, and my last GE req for the Bio part, and I have to take Stats and MacroEcon for the Pharm part. And I'm for sure taking the first sem of my Physics class over the summer....ahhh there's a lot I need to work out.
I'm super tired and all, but there's so much stuff to do. I wish I could be energetic and uppity all the time, but I'm really feeling the never ending cycle of stuff that keeps piling on. Just gotta keep fighting on, and placing my trust in the Lord.
OKAY!! :) have a good one guys
Beat the Irish!!
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| call me lame. but I am seriously hurting for some bear butt whooping.
I've been holding my tongue, I can feel the anxiety and the tension... this is USC football.
Fight on Trojans, I'll love you no matter what happens today, but I will be seriously sad.
I REALLY WANT TO DESTROY SOMETHING ARRRRGH.
Edit:
Okayy so we won :) And my heart can rest easy tonight. Stafon I hope you're doing well! Your boys really got out the guns and shot down all those Bears :)
Well, here's my beef. I have a lot of pride as a Trojan, and no matter what people say about us being U$C, I don't think they have any right to beat us down on any aspect. I don't know a single person who just "throws money around" though that's the vibe that we give off. Personally, I hate it when people make that money comment. Well, I just hate any kind of smack talk against SC...and that's a given huh. I don't really know, when it comes from really pompous fans it just gets me really angry. And look, I have nothing against Berkeley or the people who go there (c'mon guys my sister went there!!) But when people go past the ball game and start attacking the quality and cost of education we receive at USC, the character of people who go here, that's just...not cool.
I have respect for every other team out there. I know USC isn't an epic-fail proof team. I know there's a bunch of things we can work on. There always is. I know I might not be as smart as some dude who goes to Yale, someone there might be so much more equipped to be a pharmacist than I am. But I can work hard for it at USC with the opportunity I've been given. I'm just saying, let football be football. Everyone can have their own pride, but don't ever get into my kitchen or I'll grill it right out of you.
Here's my outlook on my own team. We're young, Matt's making a lot of mistakes that are being covered by our excellent defense headed by Taylor Mays. We're not able to convert on a lot of our red zone plays, I really don't know why, but we had many chances at a TD and only a few made it through (though enough to really bring home the win!) I'm so proud of Matt, I really think he's a great role model for all those freshie QBs out there! And yet this was supposed to be our "transition year". We have a lot of tough, tough games ahead of us. The Pac-10 is currently being run by Stanford and Oregon & Oregon State have yet to come. Notre Dame's over the horizon too. The road to the promised land is going to be ever so hard, but we're a team that knows what it's like to lose and to get back up again. Sorry Cal but in football terms, your fans are great, WOW they were so crazy, but as far as knowing how to get back on your feet? Absolutely clueless. It ain't enough to have great fans, great marching band...and no team. The thing is...before Oregon beat Cal, Cal was a good team! Lot of confidence... not a lot of big team wins, but good stuff!
This is why we fight on. How the Trojans of old fought on even though "the gods" were against them and they were as good as demolished. Throw at us your wooden horses and insults, we will still get back up and fight. I will still push forward in life and make the most of my time at USC, and I am and always will be, proud to be a Trojan.
Fight on.
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| I'm going to do a quick update.
Before coming back to USC, I was really scared. I really didn't know how certain my future was going to be, but I mean who really does right? Only one person knows where I'm headed and that's God.
Two weeks before college started up again, I got that letter detailing my probation status, and for about 3 days I felt the deepest sadness I had felt in a while. Every moment I was either crying or close to tears. Really, how could I have wasted that last semester? What the heck had I been doing? How did I get myself in this situation? Thankfully, my sister giving me some perspective, kept me looking ahead. This verse also was "my verse" for last year:
2 Corinthians 4:18
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
Because God knows where I'm headed, He will make very clear what path I should take and whether or not the path I'm on is not correct for me. I just have to place my trust in him that through all up and downs, my life is not dictated by what I do for my job, or for my future financial status, but how I display my love for and my faith in Jesus Christ. And like the verse says, I can do that by looking towards the eternal remembering God's sovereignty in my life.
So far... God has been so faithful. So faithful. My first two Ochem and MolBio tests have gone... really really well. Not perfect, oh definitely not, there's still so much I have to work for. But... I feel like crying just realizing how well the Lord has been taking care of me here. I have so much to be thankful for. And the craziest part of this is that I never feel like I'm succeeding! And yet, He pulls through and somehow provides me with that confidence boost I need to keep pushing forward. Like it is seriously mind blowing to realize...though I have been putting forth my best foot forward, y'know studying and going to office hours, everything I should have been doing last year, my efforts alone are not enough to merit the final grade that I attained, I mean there's still so much more I can do. So far, only by the class curve have I been... doing so well, and hey, the class curve is so out of my control. God's grace and mercy in my life...has been so overwhelmingly present, it's exciting and humbling to really tangibly feel him working in me.
I've been attending prayer meetings with my fellowship Wednesday nights (so tonight!) and during one of those meetings, someone gave me a verse that I've made "my verse" for this year.
Colossians 1:29
To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me.
Some background info, the apostle Paul is talking about his work for the church and how...well it's totally hard, mentally, physically, emotionally, yeah, but his work is for Christ and that is the source of his joy even though he endures so much difficulty. He ends with this verse about how it is God's energy that is powerfully working in him. Isn't that thought so amazing? Seriously, in the past, and recently I've been feeling so up and down, studying, not studying enough, trying to do overtime, praying for things to work out and I feel like I just can't do what I need to do because I'm too burnt or whatever. This is just a great verse to remind me, if I just let the Lord work in my life, I will be working by his power... wow. Kinda like you got this huge like energy boost or something, like you took a Mega Potion or something or went into Overdrive right? I'm just glad that I can glorify God in my studies as well :)
I'm just really really thankful. There is a lot of work ahead to be done, I need to study harder, more, everything...I mean I'm not done with this semester yet. But the Lord has definitely reaffirmed that there is more for me to do here at USC and that is such a source of joy for me.
All praise, glory, and honor goes to you God. Thanks for keeping me afloat :)
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| It's been a while, but I can explain! So, my macbook's logic board is faulty and broke down without warning whatsoever. The worse news? Apparently the company that makes these logic boards - Nvidia completely failed on making all of that generation batch of logic boards and so the entire world kindof needs them, so they are out of stock, and therefore my macbook is at some fixing place off campus, and I wasn't given a time estimate of when I would be getting it back. Thankfully, I don't have my life on that computer as some people do, but I would be sad to have all my information lost if that is what will happen. I didn't back up my files at all! Bah.
Well what else has happened? AH Praise the Lord, and thanks all y'all for your support. My first Ochem test went really really well :) like A status. Well I got a B without the curve, but with it, I got boosted up to an A. So it definitely is a good feeling, because I studied my butt off, and while taking this test, I felt absolutely horrid, like I wanted to give up and die and I felt like almost none of my work had paid off. I just felt plain defeated, I almost didn't go to prayer meeting that day, but I was glad God prompted me to go and I did because it was very encouraging! In any case, I have my first molecular bio test, which is a bit scary too because while preparing for Ochem, MolBio was kinda dropping off... and I feel like that now with Ochem, and I guess it's just a matter of trying not to fall behind in either classes. Ahhhh it's really difficult to manage everything, but I'm glad that my head's above the water for now. Thanks for cheering for me, and pushing me to do well, I know I haven't been able to keep in contact with most of you - and now it's even tougher without a computer, but I think about you guys all the time :) I hope those of you starting UCs have a great first week and good luck with all your stuffs!
I think that a change of environment for my suite was good for me, even though I miss all my suities terribly and get so excited when I can see them....and then end up staying at their places for too long. I definitely have been trying to exert self-control and discipline, but it's so hard y'know? Not only that but I really have been trying to cut down on the football deal, watching only the first and last few minutes of each game. Yes, Washington was a huge huge disappointment, but like many of you must have heard, not a shocker to be honest. The exact same thing happened last year, and that was with a fully loaded, stacked roster with all of our NFL peeps. I am glad though to hear Mark Sanchez is doing well with his Jets, and I'm also happy to report that I see Matt Barkley on a nice regular basis....ehh no I don't stalk him, per say...I just happen to be where I know he is! hahaha
So at this moment, I am in the computer lab, which is located right across from my dorm. Seriously the Lord provides for me in every way possible, it's just too cool :) Not only that but last weekend was my first retreat with my college fellowship and it was so super awesome! I loved the bonding time and especially the spurring on to really involve ourselves in the body of Christ - the church, and to build up fellow believers. I also got to go to the beach for the first time in SoCal since 7th grade when I came down for Junior Olympics for water polo! Wow sups long ago.
My molecular biology lab is going great! I just had it today! Hahaha I just noticed I mostly updates on Bio lab days, that's probably because I'm in such a good mood. Love my MolBio lab and my TA! Haha.
So yeah, that's the down low... I'm so behind on like my manga series... :D which isn't a bad thing, but I really don't have the time, or the computer, to keep up with them at the moment. Marathon come Thanksgiving? Haha, well alright take care everyone!
-Carrie
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